i just want to relax. i just want to take comfort in knowing that at least one or two important things are not likely to be taken from me at any moment. i work so hard to fight back the tsunami of entropy to no avail. i had strong coping mechanisms but their limits are nearly reached.
i'm just trying to build a foundation for a better life, yet everything fails, breaks and corrodes and i'm left at square one. am i doing something wrong or is this just how it is in this life?